Living on a Prayer

After praying for years for a sign to show me what I should do to "fix" my marriage, nothing seems to be working. Counseling seems to be getting us nowhere. The book and video series we tried helped some at first, but petered out halfway through. Sometimes I feel I am the problem, other times I feel he is the problem. Many times I have felt we need to live apart in order to get back on track, because when we are apart, I do miss him. When I do things without him, I think of things I want to tell him or things I want to share with him. But I also think of his reactions to things. In my mind, he doesn't like the same things I like, so even when I share things wih him, he doesn't react the way I thought he would. And that disappoints me, and I get upset, and I can't put into words why I'm upset, so I just stew and nothing is said and things never get better. Then, when we talk, I bring up these tiny things that don't seem to matter, but they've piled up for so many years, they do matter. I continue to pray and seek guidance about my marriage. All I know for certain is, I don't feel like I can continue to live with him, but I'm not sure I can let him go.